Project 101 – Day 5 – So predictable!

I cannot help but laugh.

 

Laugh, because I am SO predictable.

Because my mind is SO predictable.

 

I am sitting here on the couch, looking at the half-finished painting on my easel.

And in the back of my head…..(you DO know that voice in the back of your head, don’t you?)…..something or someone says: WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

ARE YOU NUTS?

YOU HAVE NOTHING TO PAINT ABOUT!

YOU HAVE NOTHING TO SAY!!

YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOUR NEXT BRUSH STROKE WILL BE!!!

 

I feel a knot in my stomach, I get a dry throat,

I want to start finding excuses why I should stop.

……………

……………

 

And that’s the moment I started to laugh.

Because, well, come on……isn’t this just too silly, too stupid, too much…..CRAP?

 

What person in their right mind would listen to a voice so negative, so tight, so down, so heavy.

Live should be lighter than that.

 

I paint because I want to.

Because it is what I love.

 

It isn’t more complicated than that.

I just paint.

 

So if you’ll just wait a while……I’m gonna finish my painting :)

 

 

 

 

 

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